PART IV: MY HEALING JOURNEY
Although I had been trying to recover from mental illness, disordered eating, chronic illness and chronic pain for many years, I was never able to deal with the root cause of these problems. I had tried every remedy under the moon to no avail. My symptoms were all treated in isolation with a bandage approach. Western medicine, Naturopathic medicine, Traditional Chinese Medicine, Homeopathic Remedies… and the list just goes on and on. I was done. My wallet was empty. My energy was drained. I remember saying “I can’t take this anymore. I give up. I am done. No more doctors. No more remedies. I am DONE!” It was in that moment when I fully surrendered that my healing journey began.
The start of my healing journey was also the start of my spiritual journey to connect with my highest good. I had surrendered to the universe and was ready to receive its support and guidance. I had already made the decision to leave my job to focus on myself and take control of my health. I wanted to take back my health and be in control of MY health. I was done giving the power to others and being at their mercy. Upon surrendering to the universe and manifesting my desire, an opportunity came my way. Without thinking twice, I enrolled at the Canadian School of Natural Nutrition and studied to become a Registered Holistic Nutritionist.
I recall so many “OMG THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE” moments during my studies at CSNN. Throughout that year, I was given the space to walk down memory lane and discover the missing pieces to the puzzle. I was able to create a timeline of my health and fill in the blanks. I was able to figure out the root cause of my health problems and learn strategies to heal. I was able to discover that I was suffering from Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, an autoimmune condition.
I was able to look beyond the lines and understand how my mind, body and soul were connected. How external and internal factors impacted and contributed to my health. How suppressed emotions were manifesting in my body. Most importantly, I was able to understand just how much I was holding on to. It came to my awareness that in order to heal, I had to address my emotions and connect with my inner self. What came next was a lot of internal work to become in tune with myself and start the releasing process. Through journaling and meditation, retreats and intuitive work, I was able to address suppressed emotions.
Anger. Hurt. Pain. Resentment. Sadness. Guilt.
I was holding on to SO MANY EMOTIONS! When I became in tune with my emotions and my inner self, I was able to start releasing my emotions and in turn, able to start healing, mentally, emotionally and physically. I was able to take a holistic mind-body-soul approach to healing!
My healing journey is an ongoing one. My reality is that I do have ongoing health conditions that need to be managed and addressed including Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis, Polycystic Ovary Syndrome, Endometriosis, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, a history of disordered eating, various soft tissue injuries, a history of depression and anxiety and more. These conditions may be a part of me, past or present but they do not define me. I used to see all of these in a negative light and as things that would hold me back. I now see each of these as a blessing and an opportunity to connect with my inner self. Instead of viewing each of these in isolation, I view them all as a whole and address my body in a loving and holistic manner. I am blessed and grateful to say that I have found healing for many of these conditions and no longer experience any symptoms through leading a holistic lifestyle.
My holistic lifestyle, my healing journey, my reality is an ongoing journey and it always will be! I am blessed that I have been able to use food, spiritual rituals and lifestyle changes to find my way to wellness where I am THRIVING! I am so excited to delve deeper into this and share more with all of you! Every symptom, every condition, is connected to an emotion, rooted deep within your body. Every food provides healing properties. Connecting with your divine spirit, your higher good allows you to find your way to wellness. This is healing through ‘all that holistic jazz’.